Mi Poemas by El Alquimista

Learn

2006-09-27T07:37:00.000-07:00

They didn’t learn When they had to I didn’t teach Though I could do I see them struggle Yet do not help They have to learn So they don’t yelp Baseless excuses They’ll never learn Without knowledge Anonymously they’d burn Seeking knowledge Unless for a cause Cannot be free Did I say it was I know I would Eventually do share Ungrateful they are Stripped my mind bare I didn’t learn When I had to They did teach Asked me to go

Tagged and Tangled

2006-01-23T04:52:00.000-08:00

Star gazing by the sea While splashing at the water Sitting all by myself With memories of being beside her Awed by the splendor Of the tantalizing deep blue sky The night sky all magnificently lit As a random shooting star streaks by The sound of the wind rustled leaves The rocks meet the cacophonic waves as they come by Together they hum a somber tune Of soulful mutterings as I lie The full moon it lights up the sand With a precision that’s robot like Me and my loneliness Find companions who are a lot alike Walking on the moonlit sands Picking up seaweeds that look like grapes While the crustaceans scamper back into their homes On the backdrop of the moon’s reflection that the sea it apes The whole ambience like a visual blow job Fills my being with a multitude of pleasures Thanking the power above For these moments that’ll be unforgettable treasures This Tag has been done From the words that were sieved This creative mix of words Into a poem has been weaved

Crosses

2002-12-22T22:20:00.000-08:00

Crosses you have to carry The day your body and soul marry Share your love you may Crosses you just can't keep away Fools never heaven's path gained Brethren of hate in hell remained Temptation and sin a vicious circle this Once in it life's gone amiss Crosses from four generations Through life's ten thousand and one stations No respite from manna heavenly In times like this you know you're lonely Your soul cries in Moorish unison This pain in life without any reason With a cry you're born, amidst cries you go This earthly life one day you'll forego Your crosses will your soul carry To a new body it'll marry In endless lifecycles will it journey Till the universal voice says "come to me"

To a year gone by

2002-11-15T22:15:00.000-08:00

Time Flies One year goes by Lot has changed Lots remained the same The body has moved on The heart has stayed behind The soul's scarred forever The person I know has died In my mind the memories remain That instant like yesterday it seems Whose fault it was I know not Just me left alone I know Lonely in a mad and heathen world With no arms to lie Feel like forgetting and moving on Want to do it, but all I do is try Lost in this worldly maze Coming to terms am I As I await a future uncertain This one's dedicated to the year gone by

A fallen soul

2002-06-28T11:09:00.000-07:00

A fallen soul in motion In a worldly ocean Maneuvering through a maze With an unholy gaze The deafening silence of words Amidst flirting bees and birds Disaster stricken moronic souls Exorcising their favorite ghosts and ghouls Like maggots on decay feeding An unholy solemn soul is breeding Materialistic gangrene's serial killings Lustful libido's sexual healing Thus far in sacrilegious fondling Lust in flesh and blood dangling Purity and morality forbidden fruits This soul embraces the way of brutes

Behind this successful man, there is a…

2002-06-26T21:30:00.000-07:00

A young man at 21 Learning the ropes of life Saw her the first time and she looked oh so fine Eyed by all but I knew she was mine Time passed and years went by My meetings with her never ceased Departing was never so easy We were so much in love She was so receptive to me That I couldn't complain All I wanted was Her, to be mine forever My days happy with her Every night lonelier than the previous one I was sad she couldn't come home To be with me always Seven years and the inevitable happened Circumstances tore us apart Heartbroken and all forlorn I awaited her return Then she was back This time hotter than thou I could now take her home everyday The toast to my success, she was finally here to stay.

The Book

2002-06-15T23:27:00.000-07:00

I began a book With characters a many Gave them great characterizations And a right to thought and progeny With love and hate And all emotions in between Relationships and behaviors Histrionics which ne'er was seen Characters so diverse With the good, bad and the ugly Original situations that none could conceive I looked at my creation smugly Each one a pocket book I handed To contribute their own new story Pen down their experiences Of their lifetimes happy, sad or gory Enrich my book was all I wanted The zest for experiences the only mission Saddened I have been after all these eons The characters I created have forgotten their vision Here I wait with my book incomplete Silently watching my characters go astray Hoping helplessly that they find their vision Sadly, I'm timeless and just can't walk away

When loneliness beholds

2002-05-11T09:37:00.000-07:00

When life gets so lonely And there's nowhere to go There's one place I'd go finally A place I'd never want to know The desire to live no longer important The crutches of life so indefinitely dependent Conceiving of passion so immaculately impotent Joys are no longer resplendent Another day and a new story untold Life today is negligible No sensations, no feelings unfold This body a new vegetable The curse of life still picture perfect Heart and mind in loneliness beholds Who says the lonely are imperfect Into a mutant body this soul moulds

On the journey back home

2002-04-14T21:15:00.000-07:00

Been a long arduous journey From a place not mine Coming back home tonight As I hope things are fine Years have gone by Since the time I’ve been away The trees from the verandah Little higher they sway The face of the street changed Now with a new name Those forlorn walks I’ve had Are passé for my new found fame The memories still vivid Of the time I was here All those playful noises While we had nothing to fear Newer faces greet me As I walk through the door Their doe eyed innocence With aspirations for more The padre still remembers me For the mischief monger I’ve been To their love I’ll always be indebted They’re the only family I’ve ever seen

From Old to new

2002-04-12T19:07:00.000-07:00

So many days are now gone Thoughts of you yet not none From peaceful slumber I awaken Stolen kisses in dreams are taken Memories are sad yet secretly sweet Where reality and fantasy unabashedly meet Preying on each other for sustenance Your thoughts manifested in abundance Long walks on those far reaches Footprints left behind on moonlit beaches The whispering waves they tell a story Of the lonely traveler now gone weary The dew laden leaves breathe life anew Like heaven sent life giving brew In renewed freshness a lesson to learn No longer in loneliness to burn New found life silently blazes The negative emotions of yore it razes The seeds of happiness have just been sown This life from old to new it’s grown

Sometimes I ask myself

2002-03-17T03:35:00.000-08:00

Sometimes I ask myself If there was no need to think Where would emotions take seed? Sometimes I ask myself If we didn’t breathe Would the air still be pollution free? Sometimes I ask myself If we didn’t see Would the light refract off me Sometimes I ask myself If our physical bodies didn’t exist Would it matter to you and me? Sometimes I ask myself If we were not born Would we still look upwards and pray Something I ask myself If there were no words Would this be my poetry?

Eye Opener

2002-03-05T19:15:00.000-08:00

Kicking up the dust On this road travel I must Memories still shine through the rust Life weathered like my soles crust Those days of peace and slumber Lost to the heights of the climber Action, the name of my new number Fallacy, I’m your most diligent member Evading the blizzards a fine art Have now become my inherent part Meticulous with the precision of a dart Sinister the ways of the heart How have I come to believe? That I’m better than I really live Soon it’ll be time for me to leave On life’s carpet my life they’ll forget to weave Will I realize then My life this way they treat when I’ve been the biggest failure amongst all men And all my travails rated none on ten

Going home one day

2002-01-24T23:15:00.000-08:00

Going home one day Thoughts, like stations pass me by Each station my life retold From birth to this day Going home one day The signals from red to green they turn Ponder as I in between On the setbacks and boosts I had encountered Going home one day People, they walk in and out Like people in my life They never stay, much as I crave Going home one day I learn to live by The thoughts, setbacks, people As life will never cease to change Going home one day My long journey doesn’t end here I’ll be back again tomorrow Treading the same way home

This is it!

2001-12-08T11:45:00.000-08:00

Hmm! Where is it? That thing that I Have been searching for Oh! How is it? That thing that I Searched and found Ah! There it is This thing that I Have been waiting for Wow! Here it is This thing that I Always craved for Yes! This is it The thing that I Patiently pursued Hallelujah! This is it The thing that I Have and will cherish for time

The game of life

2001-12-06T22:45:00.000-08:00

I always play to win I dread to lose Winning always can make you complacent But the race to No. 1 is never complete Measure all my successes Count my losses as well Forgive my failures Haven’t I won as well? Life is like that I play to win A game, a competition, a race Where I cannot lose Expectations weigh me down Opportunities heighten my soul For life is a game And I am what I am Because I love to win!

What if?

2001-12-06T12:45:00.000-08:00

What if I could, would I? What if I did, would you? Would you be happy with me? Would I be happy with you? What if I should, could I? What if you could, did you? Would the world matter to us? Would we matter to the world? What if I had, would you? What if you did, would I? Would the difficulties have passed us by? Would we face these difficulties? Would, Should, Could we? Question and more questions That’s all there are Still it remains, what if?

The Protagonist’s woe

2001-12-04T13:55:00.000-08:00

Deep within my heart still bleeds Raw, the memories of yesterday Life in a different direction it moves No one can see the pain Days become months and months to years The past still a formidable present Never can I feel that way again The act scary to replay Cupid’s part through in life’s theatre The histrionics now of a different kind Curtains have fallen, the protagonist still on stage In denial the show never ended If the worlds a stage and we’re all actors I need to meet the playmaker and ask him If all that I had to do was play my part Why did it have to hurt so bad

Thoughts

2001-10-30T22:25:00.000-08:00

Thoughts that are confused Thoughts that are sure Thoughts that are perverted Thoughts that are pure Thoughts that are distributed Thoughts that are near Thoughts that are forgotten Thoughts that are dear Thoughts that are diffused Thoughts that are core Thoughts that are mild Thoughts that are severe Thoughts that give joy Thoughts that give hope Thoughts that give peace Thoughts that give love For good, bad and the ugly This is what I have Thoughts that make me The man that I am

Trapped in the shadows

2001-05-11T16:50:00.000-07:00

As time beckons A life anew Stuck in a quandary This state of mind Disengaging the past So difficult inside Burdens the heart With tears to cry Opportunities abounding With choices to make Yet emotions bind The fire inside The images animated Of the time gone by Trapped in its shadows Scared to think am I

To the things left behind

2001-04-28T09:50:00.000-07:00

A long and arduous journey In search of fame and money With friends and foes There were oh so many Cradled this place that we all now cherish With the sweat of our brow lovingly did we nourish What’s the future no one knows For we know one day we will all perish A day comes when you leave things behind In search of a new challenging grind Anywhere the people may go The memories still stay fresh in the mind The tremors have rocked the foundation Of the very thing that was once our creation Though things may never be the same Yet one hopes and prays for a resurrection

The Page Turner

2001-04-17T12:00:00.000-07:00

As I start to write Some lines scribbled in rhyme The poetry just ain’t right Unlike Paul’s Parsley, Sage, Rosemary and thyme Countless leaves to waste Unfinished like an aborted child This poetry has no taste My art seems to have gone wild Impregnating every virgin page This Casanova’s one night stand The heavens have come down with rage Yet no commitments for the golden band Good providence eventually prevails Needn’t write anywhere hereafter He’s found the page that’ll end his travails The poetry’s right, the pen and page live happily thereafter

In a state of mind

2001-02-12T10:57:00.000-08:00

A feeling of emptiness When I’m satiated A feeling of loneliness Though amidst crowds A bout of carelessness Though it’s totally safe An attack of uneasiness Though there’s nothing wrong A flurry of happiness In a heart that’s sad A feeling of godliness So alien to the atheist soul A show of heartlessness In a heart so uncannily kind An act of viciousness For a man so piously divine A stroke of madness For one who is perfectly fine An ounce of tastefulness For a life that’s totally bland

In the years, I’m here

2001-02-09T09:54:00.000-08:00

A brace of years For feelings to change Never felt it strong In the years, I’m here Persistence certainly pays Though time is lost Seems like it’s worth it In the years, I’m here Is this love? I yet don’t know But will always cherish it In the years, I’m here In love you fall Out of love you may be But I’ll always seek it In the years, I’m here Possibilities galore Happen they may not Never lived for a rainy day In the years, I’m here

The end is nigh

2001-01-27T21:35:00.000-08:00

Banished to intellectual sobriety The mark on the world indelible Triumphant at every crossword Collecting lives of twisted souls Judgment day eagerly waits To a symphony of destruction The shattered hearts of pious souls Of lives they led regretting Pearly gates of heaven So precariously laden The god of light has been traveling The coup for it a vindication sign The books all predictably distorted The majority forever undermined The gods have played to democracy The anarchist regime has died

Singapore by night

2001-01-27T01:55:00.000-08:00

Late past midnight Beer can by the side Fermenting the thoughts inside Sleepless Singapore style Day and night one like Assigning different meanings to life Time bids goodbye Emotions to hide Memories the unfaithful bride Jazz strains played mild Dim lights apartment wide Soothes the soul lay inside All poetry no rhyme Independent lonesome guy Kissing the last cigarette goodbye Weary looking eyes Dream a pleasant sight Awaken to the morning light An encore for life Going through the same old plight Still shamelessly awaits a new midnight

Strange Calm

2001-01-23T11:30:00.000-08:00

Strange this calm Of forsaken solitude Drought ridden eyes No voices here A multitude of joys In memories remembered Smiles and laughter Now seldom linger Gazing they find In objects new identities The bathroom slip-ons So strangely abandoned Echoes still manifest Trapped within walls The voice long gone Lost to endless slumber Loss or gain The argument will continue When in death They do depart!

Enigma

2001-01-21T12:42:00.000-08:00

As I await To hear the words That I want to hear To emanate from her lips My heart In eager anticipation Fondles the feeling Of her love to me Tis’ was it The feelings in her voice Saying so much Without uttering words A passion Deep seated it was That both felt Yet conceded never Funny it is This thing called love That everyone seeks Whilst some cherish Yet for some It still remains An enigma That just refuses to reveal

Disconnected

2001-01-20T10:41:00.000-08:00

Tryst with myself Fight for survival An endless maze of inconsequence So utterly disheveled A smart decoction Of good and bad All and sundry So amazingly disfigured Summoning the forces For their precious gaze On this blessed maggot So artistically dismembered The words and verses In unearthly rhyme The poetry so far So classically disconnected

This one’s for you

2001-01-18T16:20:00.000-08:00

This one’s for you my love For the moments that you gave me For the love that we cherished For the memories that’ll remain Be with me forever I would certainly wish In times both good and bad I’d be there, I promise You will always be the only one No matter what comes my way My love will be dedicated to you Every night and Every day Love is not about promises I know Words can never say what we share May these feelings remain I solemnly pray That you and me may depart together one day

The Legacy

2000-12-05T10:35:00.000-08:00

The legacy has remained After all these days Whoever thought it would be so Cause it was never intended that way One by one the masters came together Under one unifying umbrella With a machinist zeal Bubbling with volcanic energy Time never was the barrier As the sprits soared high A work of impeccable perfection The cult was born and here to stay Each one separate ways have gone But the legacy still remains Ingrained in each one’s heart and mind The legacy still bonds them together Wherever they may be

Call me

2000-11-27T11:20:00.000-08:00

Call me by a name that I know Call me what you may like You could say anything you want But it doesn’t mean it’s right Affected, I’m not by what you say For it changes nothing of me as it may God forbid, if it does as you bid I’d pay you to say what to say Foolish are those who run the way others say Their inner confidence, mulled so to say Deprived of their own opinions they are Like puppets on others wishes they dance Why then should I be affected? By the words that others speak They pretend like they know my every way And yet they don’t know me half as much as me.

Vox populi!

2000-11-27T10:55:00.000-08:00

The din of the vox populi The role of a jury it plays Glorifying and denouncing, as it likes The history of the world it writes Does majority make it right? A million dollar question that it is The correctness of a convinced minority In the numbers game, ignored it lies The wrong doers, they are now heroes Lo! At the cost of the saintly villains Injustice to the innocent minions meted The end of time is near From this darkness a new horizon we seek Where history is more than general speak Where legends as legends be And not gods for us to believe!

Urging urchins

2000-11-27T10:45:00.000-08:00

Under streetlights With borrowed kids Feigning illness Seeking alms Tattered clothes Grime filled bodies Un-bathed stench Weathered soles The red signal A blessing in disguise Spotless cars Air-conditioned interiors Wrinkled at eighteen Time defies biology Begging sympathy For an urchin’s life

Oh holy master

2000-11-09T11:00:00.000-08:00

Come to me oh holy master Come to me and stay Teach me all the things I don’t Teach me all that’s faraway Come to me oh holy master Come to me and talk Teach me the strengths of life Teach me the solidness of a rock Come to me oh holy master Come to me and love Teach me the tenderness of life Teach me the purity of a dove Come to me oh holy master Come to me and stay Teach me the gratefulness of life Teach me how to pray

The Night Sky

2000-11-09T10:35:00.000-08:00

On a moonlit horizon The far silhouettes of fishing boats Lining the star studded sky A gentle breeze blowing wild As waves smother the shores The moon crescent romantically inclined Laying on my beloved’s lap Staring at the starry sky The twinkle in her eye One with the glittering night sky The whisperings of sweet nothings Make music with the rustling palms Her tender loving care reserved for me The fisher folk they return ecstatic As I awake with the sands by my side

A verb called love

2000-11-04T21:50:00.000-08:00

Alienated By the curse of the society Devastated The morale once so high Suppressed The laughter that was for all to see Ridiculed The heart that was naïve Crushed That emotion so helplessly kind Rejected The proposition of a settled man’s life Amplified The hurt that was so mild Oppressed The poor open mind Annihilated The love that was divine

The End!

2000-11-04T21:45:00.000-08:00

In sleepless turmoil The emotion a clever foil As the mind still does toil The hidden tears mix with the soil The heart bleeds with joy For the damsel who’s so coy Love seems an intricate ploy The feelings played like a toy Unfazed by the uncertainty The wooing an unending litany Still striving for the spiritual unity As heart, mind and body form the trinity With decisions that seldom bend The heart needs an urgent mend Hurt by the heart that refuses to lend This is the end, my friend! This is the end!

The drunken escapade

2000-11-03T09:30:00.000-08:00

Late one night On a drunken escapade Front to a mirror Staring at the apparition A face that looks alien Is that me or someone else Hard to recognize; unveiled The mask manages to trick me What was I? What did I become? The true self; only In drunkenness liberated Deep inside The real me Still waits For another drunken escapade To be set free

Is it you?

2000-10-15T22:00:00.000-07:00

Why is it that I long to hold you? Why is it that I want be hand-in-hand with you? Why is it that I want to reach out to you? What’s it about you that makes me to keep coming back? Why is it that the sight of you sets off a flight of thousand butterflies? Why is it that I want to be there for you, forever? Why is it that I’m still waiting for you? What’s it about you that I’ve forgotten to move on? Why is it that I still long for you? Why is it that my life seems incomplete without you? Why is it I long to see and meet you? What’s it about you that none can be in my life? Is this love or am I dreaming? Is this the love that I’ve been waiting for? Its gonna be you or no other For my heart cannot love another.

Success!

2000-10-03T10:30:00.000-07:00

‘I have arrived’ said I to myself With a deep sense of success and achievement Powerful, infallible and omnipotent The ego bubble nearly bursting at its seams There I was resting on my laurels and fame The hunger for future conquests still beckoning The world at my command so to say I had Throwing tantrums with the power of the name As a tiny thought crosses my mind I wonder Is this all worth it that I’ve gained Forgotten have I to enjoy the small things in life That gleeful laugh, that childish grin Would have been happier surely Repented now at the temptation of the ladder Had I risen or fallen, success was inconsequential Had I forgotten to live a life I was happier with Or did I gain everything but lose my soul

How can I?

2000-09-18T13:15:00.000-07:00

How can I be your friend? How can I be the one you love? How can I be the one you trust? How can I be the one you adore? How can I be your soulmate? How can I be your life partner? How can I be your knight in shining armour? How can I be the one you’ll spend the last days of your life? How can I be there for you when you need me? How can I be there to hold you when you’re lonely? How can I be the hero of your romantic fantasy? How can I be the one deserving of your love? How can I be the father to your children? How can I be your confidante? How can I be the one to treat you like a princess? How can I be the one who gets you weak in the knees? How can I be there with you happily ever after? How can I? Pray, tell me how can I?

From here to eternity!

2000-08-28T13:30:00.000-07:00

Indifferent society Superficial piety Indignant amity Democratic inequality Relaxed anxiety Indulgent sobriety False verity Intelligent stupidity Competent ineffectuality Humble vanity Clad nudity Moral depravity Definite infinity Timed eternity

Timeless Time

2000-08-24T10:30:00.000-07:00

Wherefrom did I come? Whereto will I go? Where am I anyways now? This time dimension hard to fathom I know Still I’m in the same place Everything’s happening here and now My past, my present, my future They exist together here The universe was never born The sun will ne’er die I’ll continue to live on Below this unchanging deep blue sky I’m traveling, yet not moving Cause time is a standstill An illusionary custom dream Where I’ll only see what I want to see Rest is all history

Insight

2000-08-24T00:05:00.000-07:00

One look and I have it all Past, Present, Future et al They are all there all at once now This illusionary feeling I don’t know how My birth and death at this one instance This constant fight has no substance My world is smaller than I ever thought The struggle for survival and what it wrought The past is my future The present my past This future is my present Don’t know how long it’s going to last As I awake from a dream that’s timeless Awakened I would think it was mindless But this humble insight comes to me And I know this living just needn’t be

Oft beaten track

2000-08-08T10:00:00.000-07:00

Wandering along the desolate path Effervescence of the oft beaten track Casting an uncanny spell A sense of déjà vu abounds Seems like I’ve been here before Walked this path and failed Oven baked fresh memories This time was not long ago Fear ridden, hope motivated I decide to walk once more The past pitfalls notwithstanding This tunnel has an end I’m sure The candle of sweet belonging burning bright I need to be in the open all over again This light will not burn any much longer Supplementary energy source, as me beckon

Judgment day

2000-08-08T09:25:00.000-07:00

Solitary fight of the lonely beast Curse of the slithery snake Forsaken and forgotten A wanderlust long abandoned Lost to the powers that be Fallen in the eyes of many Favorite archangel now enemy to be The celestial association that’s failed Garnering to regain the lost glory With like minded souls and sundry For the one final assault On the kingdom that’s reigned forever Buying souls for cheap Fallen prey to charms of temptation The armies get their arsenal ready For judgment day is nigh, for the heavens to see

The Enemy within

2000-07-10T23:00:00.000-07:00

Slowly getting out was I As the wounds of the heart healed, Normalcy had returned in the strife torn mind Conflicts of the mind seemed long forgotten The serene peace was nearly here to stay Memories relegated to the dark contours of the mind Sabotage! Cried the heart As the cause of the memories staged a comeback Heart in quandary, memories gone haywire The past comes back to the present, The future hazy as the mind savors this moment How long! I ask, as this was just not meant to be The broken heart fights back in action Spirit willing, flesh weak, can’t take it again Hope! The enemy within is back with a bang It’ll nail me once more I know Destroy my faith once again Killing the soul for its own gain.

After all these years…

2000-07-06T22:50:00.000-07:00

After all these years, The penchant for life still sustained Triumphant in a glory, Whose fragrance had long remained. Comes along a love, That’s begs to be pursued, At long last, The heart has been rescued. Crying with joy, The anger has been moved, This listless existence, In past years has been proved. Why! Oh, Why! As the heart is questioned. What was the need? For this mediocrity to be stationed?

My Inanimate friend

2000-06-20T12:20:00.000-07:00

The tree still remembers me From a time I try to forget Its rustling and sway greets me again Inquisitive on where I’d been Memories flashback and it wants to know Why is it I’m lonely and low The heart etched on its bark calls out Its not seen me from years ago Things have changed, but I’ve remained the same Others take shade, where once I’d been Though I’ve grown, my heart’ been left behind Safely on the tree, who knew my partner in life My inanimate friend still remembers me Silently reminding me of times that had been The only witness to my secret rendezvous Where Sweet nothings beneath the boughs said Her giggle and tears still caught in the leaves of time As I relive my past without her by my side Before long the tree will forget Time will move on, but will I forget too?

End of Innocence

2000-06-20T10:30:00.000-07:00

Many a times a feeling comes to me A feeling that’s with remorse aplenty The pangs of growing older those have come to be The gift of knowing was rather a curse maybe As I child never had to worry did I Of so many things that I now need to see Falling down never meant anything As failure was the unknown stranger then Growing up with the sedimentation of knowledge Over the silt of innocence lost in memories Asked did I, for knowing like a razor’s edge Cutting to shreds the pieces of innocence The innocence now left way behind Deep down in the crust of time Knowledge grows with manifold consistency Wary but helpless, for this is the end of innocence.

The Refugee song

2000-06-16T21:50:00.000-07:00

Far away from the home that was once my own To a new land, not knowing what it has in store Amidst hostility and turmoil did I survive A senseless destruction that has prevailed The ethnic unrest that ceased to cease The fundamentalists had their hatred reserved for me For the minority had no voice of its own The cruel killing fields were tilled with scorn The fault they said was in my birth An irreversible identity that had nothing in it for me Unfailing the devotion for the country Sigh! This place seems to have betrayed me Still a hope abounds in the new land That I now call my home But the same love will never be As this country is not my own and a refugee will I ever be

Lost in Limbo

2000-06-14T10:50:00.000-07:00

The silent din deafens the ears An eeriness of dark leanings Creaking doors open to howling wolves A cool gust of wind brushes by me As though someone’s there Coming to life the furniture of antiquity As though they stood still biding their time Surpassing eons in listless abandon The unearthly ambience stares at me Questioning my presence here Silhouette figurines emanating out of nowhere Seemingly like people lost in limbo Walking along as though nothing has happened Wry smiles secretly welcome me As I’m the new resident here

Inquisitive Soul

2000-06-13T23:20:00.000-07:00

An aboriginal fascination for the unknown Given away to a feeling of insecurity Marks the death of the inquisitive soul Caught in the monotony of what’s known Peace, only an inconsequential fantasy Vagaries of the staid rules within Criminal, this waste of ingenuity Clasped like the scruff of the strangled neck Evoking a passionless de facto solemnity In a mind that’s lost at sea Encompassing multitudes of secret getaways Thrown away in the insurmountable depths of nullity Sieges within the cage of ignorance The indomitable spirit like a raged lunatic Sarcastic feeling of self-pity breeds within Insecurity performs the last rites of the inquisitive soul

Celestial Sky

2000-06-08T22:10:00.000-07:00

The unfailing dedication of the sun All monotony in this one Day in and day out Whether rain or shine Through evening twilight surfaces the moon Different faces every night Yet flaunting the blemishes proudly The romance in the moonlight has begun Twinkling way above in the vast expanse Stars shining lighting up the night sky Some bright some dim Yet shine they sure will Immaculately trapped since ancient folklore The wonders of these celestial bodies Yet man will never grow out of his handicaps Like the sun, moon and stars in the sky

Cultist Overtones

2000-06-06T21:30:00.000-07:00

Sacrilegious vendetta seething within A murderous closeness to Hades seeking Prejudiced beyond doubt Hatred for one and all Humungous lust for insobriety Smoke filled rooms closed within Suicidal tendencies manifold Ask not just kill them all Unforgiveness written all over the lexicon Guilt ridden heart never exists A beastly sense of anger Slaughter the best medicine of all A corrupt sense of desire Burning viciousness of cultist overtones Incisive anger breeding inequality Sacrificial offering with blood dripping all over

Burnt Urns

2000-06-06T21:05:00.000-07:00

The archaic remains of burnt urns Who cares! They have no value for what they’re worth Their feelings smashed to a thousand pieces Wastefulness gravitates from deep within Back to the mould but the memory remains Poking fun at the failure they had been This time it’s not going to get any better Uselessness surrounds the new exteriors again Despite all this the potter doesn’t resign As the urns painted with new color glow The world is fooled, but the inner self remembers Indentityless deep down within the memory still hurts One amongst the millions still unseen The urge to succeed will never be seen The burnt urns will never forget Superficialness will never get them anywhere

Who am I?

2000-06-05T10:10:00.000-07:00

Do I know who am I? Far from the one I should be Choosing an identity I’ve decided to be Forcing a genuine persona over me Do you know who am I? Picking only the characters you want to see Undermining all the faults that are in me Still unaware of what I’m supposed to be Do they know who am I? Watching from the sidelines every move I make Deducing a certain personality for me Maybe secretly hoping to know me Who am I? Would we really ever know?

Move on, Come on, Lets go on

2000-06-02T21:50:00.000-07:00

Move on, Come on, Lets go on Far from the hills and valleys of daily life To infinite sands of nothingness Where there’s nothing there about you and me Together we shall make a new beginning A beginning that has no end An experience with no past reference As the feeling of nothingness eggs us on Move on, Come on, Lets go on Far from the chains and bondages To the unbound oceans of infiniteness Where we wouldn’t have to worry who are you and who am I Together we shall make a new relationship Away from society naming us man and wife Who would be there to care who we are For the love is so deep, and identities will not matter at all

Rain dance

2000-06-02T11:15:00.000-07:00

As lightening strobes the sky The thunder rumbles to an offbeat tune As leaves shake to a natural rhythm The river twists and turns The trees drenched like a sensuous damsel With raindrops that fall in irregular patterns As fields giggle like bathing children The sun has got to take rest for sometime As birds take shelter under leaves with shivering wings The clouds look menacing yet so mild The wind joins forces to add to the glee The natural rain dance has come to get me Wading through muddy waters et al The smell of the earth gives me the blissful high I love As sunshine steals a few moments of pleasure The rains are back again; make me feel like heaven is here

Body and Soul

2000-06-01T22:45:00.000-07:00

Oh my God! I’ve done it again Gone in a world full of pain Crossed over a thousand shores Yet behaving like I’ve never been there before Each time the goal seems the same End of which, cursed why I ever came Believe the idiosyncrasy will never cease What the heck, this body is on lease The body and soul go with thoughts they don’t share Existence of either, as if they don’t care Using each other in parasitic turns Alas! Dust they are, to dust they will return Wonder who needs who, amongst the two If each had their say, they’d go their own ways too In spite of this man lives with a superior élan O lord! Couldn’t you have a better plan?

A Schizophrenic dream

2000-05-31T22:15:00.000-07:00

Am I still dreaming? I seemed to have awoken long ago From a nightmare of a non-existent me A misty feeling of a bodiless soul Brooding over a past that now didn’t exist Anxious of a future that hadn’t come Step motherly treating a nubile present Endlessly blaming destiny for all that was to be Imagined a life without strife Like a comic book hero would I set things right Fantasizing of a fight between good and evil Childishly confused on which side I wanted to be The romantic fascination of God’s favorite archangel Or the devilish conniving persona of his archenemy A Dr. Jekyll by day and a Mr. Hyde by night A schizophrenic personality would I be

An Endless Maze

2000-05-28T22:10:00.000-07:00

Searching through an endless maze For the one fine thing that’ll make my day Through names that have no faces Through addresses that have no streets Through love that has no feelings Through a union that lacks physicality Searching through an endless maze For the one fine thing that’ll make my day Through pages that have no reams Through mails that have no postages Through links that have no influences Through the unreal that’s yet so real Searching…

Children of a lesser god

2000-05-27T22:00:00.000-07:00

Toiling hard day after day To earn that hard earned daily bread Undergoing hardships and shame To make two ends meet Naked, with no cover for body and home A shame that never existed Not influenced by raising eyebrows Breasts that no longer have the ability to feed Dirty and haggard With no inclination to be groomed Fighting for equality in an unequal world As rich get richer and poor poorer Who is their god they ask As reasons for their toil unknown Patiently living their ragged lives Children of a lesser god they are

If

2000-05-27T12:35:00.000-07:00

If words didn’t have meaning If songs didn’t have lyrics If music didn’t have notes If the sky didn’t have stars If the oceans didn’t have shores If birds didn’t fly Would you still be mine? If butterflies were stark If flowers lacked fragrance If my heart was square If the sun didn’t set at all If the trees’ canopy was my only roof If I existed only in your dreams Would you still love me? If marriage was just a contract If relatives could be bought If religion existed in mythology If sacred texts were pure science fiction If god never existed If there was no such thing as man and woman Would there still be you and me?

I have a dream

2000-05-26T21:25:00.000-07:00

I have a dream, a wonderful dream A dream that’s forever A dream that’s romantic One, which I wouldn’t awake from I have a dream, a wonderful dream Dream about a life that’s not about my life Nothing to do with the vagaries of daily life Peaceful yet different, away from the drudgery I have a dream, a wonderful dream I glide in a weightless state sans life’s burdens There’s no past, there’s no future Just a different present I have a dream, a wonderful dream Passionately holding my soulmate One whom I’ve been waiting for so long Lovingly sharing the same dream I have a dream, a wonderful dream A dream about success Sweet yet earned with the sweat of my brow One that makes the generations proud

My first love

2000-05-26T10:50:00.000-07:00

As the soft somber Latin rhythm plays My body lilts to the romantic undertones Imagining my girl swaying alongside The catalyst working to the Latino chemistry The immaculate crescendo of the classical raga Spirituality resounds to the resonance of the universe Vibrating soul with goose pimples all over An oneness with the Supreme Being Scatting away the words with jazz The graceful dance of the jazz singer Feel like singing along as I dance To vibrant beats and soulful rhythms Screeching out on absolute lung power Rock brings out the aggression deep within Washing out the anger and hatred Me sharing stage with the lead guitar distorting It has always been my first love Whether romantically soft or harshly loud Much to a relationship akin Bringing out the emotions, both best or worst Feeling the flavor of anger and love

Confessions of the Grim Reaper

2000-05-24T15:05:00.000-07:00

As my scythe disengages another The look on my face doesn’t twitch The existence in memories begins The tears dry but leave the trails Like ridges that run infinitely deep To deaf ears are pleas and requests made The heartless rib cage doesn’t bleed As my scythe continues to disengage Panic stricken hearts broken As a maniacal environment sets in Ever imagined a world without me An unnerving confusion of relations galore Losing loved ones the occupational hazard Disengagement of the hated perquisites fine Continuing with this immortal job As my scythe disengages another

Glorified Martyr

2000-05-23T23:15:00.000-07:00

Pitiful, O poor me, I didn’t succeed The wretched naivety elaborately schemed Forged the martyr look on me The betrayal soldier highly decorated was he Deceitful, the ladylove, I once conceded Her vanity to deplorable virtues susceptible Depravity fathoming the depths of the ocean floor Garnering the courage to forge ahead Revengeful, the heart, beneath receded Rummaging the past for hurt inflicted A shame, mass murdering a million cells Vengeance sucks with a sadomasochist gild Wishful, the soul, the hope irradiated Crammed with the wistfulness of lives a many To prayerful monologs of sarcastic overtones Punishing the crabbiness of the glorified martyr

Sadistic urges of power

2000-05-23T09:45:00.000-07:00

Everybody wants to rule the world Everybody wants to take control Trampling the meek below the feet Massacring the weak for evil gains Power, the potent intoxicant Drives people in unethical ways Injustice, the forbidden fruit Relished with a psychotic charm Sadistic sense of pleasure derived A compulsive urge to inflict pain Feeding on pleas of mercy A deep sense of victory within

Crossroads

2000-05-20T10:15:00.000-07:00

Standing at the crossroad, I asked myself Will this road take me to my abode? Or will I return yet again to regret Will I ever stand at a crossroad again? Life’ decisions as simple as they seem Are harder to take The fear of risk overbearing Shunts the opportunity that’s to be Treading the same familiar path is our forte Not realizing the gain elsewhere that were to be Who cares finally, six feet under do I eventually go Didn’t matter if I had gained or lost more I once had a purpose to life, to be highly evolved Struggled hard to work on it for a while But soon the worldly pursuits controlled And made me the being that I am today!

The New Leaf

2000-05-19T10:05:00.000-07:00

As I turned to him once more Still awaiting my return was he Through eyes with a sparkle like a baby’s eyes Awaiting the return of the prodigal son Hurt him, I did Running away from him For his way looked uninteresting For the materialistic lust beckoned me Cremating the spiritual being in me to dust As the materialistic devil like a phoenix arose Destroying the soul bit by bit Unlearning the spirituality of past lives Everyone wants to be a new leaf Withered off from the branch that’s corrupt But does the guilt leave me alone As the fight for spirituality never ends Promise him, I do Never to hurt him again A promise that’s going to be hard to keep As the urge to be a new leaf strengthening

Confused Thoughts

2000-05-18T12:30:00.000-07:00

The moving train has always served To feed my creative urges Feel the energy higher in the rat-a-tat-tat of rails Than in the solitude of the waves lashing the shore Wondered where these thoughts came from Or why, or how, or when Germinating from the emotional uncertainty Rapidly growing to poetic artistry Have always thought, why aren’t there pleasantries Like the love poets of yore Is this a façade of sadness? Safely guarding the miniscule happiness inside Confused thoughts! I call them Confusing the poet and his poet-o-philes The true self of the poet amazingly hidden Behind the long list of thoughts to poetry turned

Raining Tears

2000-05-18T12:10:00.000-07:00

As I awake to a dawn To a missing sun Clouded by the rain gods Akin to a celestial rain dance The city turned to sea Frolicking children in gay abandon Oblivious to the standstill in the city This is gonna be their day out As the strains of the ghazal Enrich the dullness that is present The mournful chanting with salted tears Is unseen in the rain soaked eyelids Awaiting the arrival of the sun To dry the tears washed away by the rain Searching for the silver lining in a cloudy life To a standstill this life has come

Angels with Broken Wings

2000-04-03T20:00:00.000-07:00

In a world of Paranoia we live The insecurity like maggots breeds Succumbing to a brimful of vices Like Angels with broken wings are we A love that’s so selfish The angelic innocence of an infant’s smile That’s lost to the evil urge to win Like Angels with broken wings are we Logic of the mind that rules over The simple urges of the heart that’s suppressed Seemingly devoted yet so superficial Like Angels with broken wings are we Solace in worldly suppressants We find for a body that’s so self-sufficient Fastening the pace to this journey’s finale Like Angels with broken wings are we Crushed in the burden of memories Pulled apart by a worrisome past Never will man reach the immortality Cause like Angels with broken wings are we

A Journey

2000-03-30T21:00:00.000-08:00

As the train leaves the platform A stage in life it reminds me Some alight to go away Some enter to go somewhere A new platform arrives and The same sequence repeats Some are with you longer Some are there shorter The stations seem like time Where each to a moment akin A time that is still Just passing along am I Eventually your destination arrives And you too join the bandwagon Of people, who will alight. Life’s just a train journey Where none remain forever

The Mother-to-be

2000-03-29T10:10:00.000-08:00

The soft kick awakens me The child in me seeks attention O how fast in my womb he’s grown The maternal instinct in me can’t withhold As I long for his touch Waiting to satisfy all his needs Can’t forget the day I knew That he was coming to make my life anew A new identity will I have An identity that would make me ecstatic and proud Protect and nurture him up until The days he says I’ll take it from here Like a shadow will I still follow Guiding him through life’s blushes Bask in his glory, I will Regale in his joys too Though I know the day is yet afar The mother-to-be has traveled in time

You asked for it

2000-03-25T10:10:00.000-08:00

As the incision got deeper The knife came closer To the heart that was bleeding Snapped from the life system My hand held the severed heart Stretched towards you As you asked for it Distracted from daily rigmarole Away from the job at hand Thoughts that were wandering Swaying, lilting to a romantic tune My thoughts weren’t mine anymore They had betrayed its owner As you asked for it An integral part of me I thought It would leave me only when I’m not Pondering over all my previous lifetimes Learning and gaining and evolving Never learnt to keep away from obstacles My soul, sucked out of my physical body As you asked for it

Legend at 27

2000-03-24T10:20:00.000-08:00

Twenty-seven in Two thousand the year of the lord Many people have reached their peak Like a candle that lets off it last bright flame Gone under mysterious circumstances Few of my rock and roll idols Jim, Jimi, Janis, Kurt, Michael… …With no more achievement to make Am I destined for this peak? Will I enter my name amongst these? Crazy but true, people might just say Another legend at 27 has gone too

…yet I’m…

2000-03-24T09:40:00.000-08:00

Moving, yet I’m still Proud, yet I’m humble Crazy, yet I’m normal Ambiguous, yet I’m clear Timid, yet I’m bold Romantic, yet I’m cold Open, yet I’m closed Atheist, yet I’m a believer Friendly, yet I’m a loner Strong, yet I’m weak Mature, yet I’m imbecile Smart, yet I’m dumb Failure, yet I’m successful All this, yet I’m…

The Lone Ranger

2000-03-23T22:00:00.000-08:00

Through ups and downs Of life’s mountains and valleys People come and go But the lone ranger learns to go on Sadness taken in stride Flaunting the happiness and joys The face reveals and hides at will The expressions of life’s offerings Success, like a fickle mistress Failure, the misgivings of an unwilling bride Tears the final frontier For both sadness and joy The soul lets out a silent scream Amidst the din of mankind The birth wish comes crumbling down In rubble that none see The lone ranger wanders alone Searching a barren desert The soul mate like a mirage appears As the illusion mocks and laughs All the achievement seems hollow In a meaningless empty life The lone ranger quenches the thirst From the mirage’s last illusionary drop.

The Struggle within

2000-03-14T22:30:00.000-08:00

The known face becomes unknown Like strangers they behave The residue that’s remained Looks mountainous to handle The turmoil in relating Confusion for the heart Mind in a seesaw battle The bias still telling Hope is now the biggest enemy The writing written on the wall The soul torn to pieces Severing ties the best option of all A friendship too hard to handle A love that never was Self-destruction taking its toll The joy seems lost forever Finding it may be difficult The walls are rebuilding The notice for all to see Heart wounded in action, no entry for love!

The Lonely Street

2000-03-13T20:00:00.000-08:00

Walking on a lonely street Pacing slowly on aching feet The flickering streetlights tell the tale Of a time that had long gone stale Can’t decipher the glory of the past Or the present that had come at last A future that is too bleak to see Or a better life for all that is to be Thousands have come and gone Has left this street worn and alone The tar reveals the wounded stones No lights within the lamp shade cones As though time had stood still Awaiting the change in the citizen’s will An historic location for people’s glare No redressing had left it bare Was it its fault it lasted so long? Couldn’t have got worse for this furlong A new tar coat would otherwise appear Maybe ten times every year Is it worth it to live forever? In a life that’s more a lake than a river All for a hope that things will be fine The good old times will be back in line But the lonely street will always be A historic place for all to see All its feelings smashed beneath The place that adorns the citizen’s wreath! The flickering streetlights still tell the tale Of a time that had long gone stale Maybe time would yet stand still As the lonely street awaits a change in the citizens will!

An Uncertain Future

2000-03-13T10:15:00.000-08:00

Oceans away The land beckoned To a future That’s uncertain Far away Away from loved ones Only pictures and memories Of bygone times A different culture With ambient air of advancement The underdeveloped fragrance Of native soil still called A longing to return To the same old soil Be with loved ones Now the money didn’t mind The caring and love Money couldn’t buy I’m back again now The future still uncertain But that’s fine

Darker than Darkness

2000-03-07T09:45:00.000-08:00

Waiting for the evening to set in The darkness signaled the beginning Of the night that was to be Nothing special with this one This sequence kept repeating The wine so smooth washed out the fear The impossible so much possible So one thought But the darkness changed not Still going with the same vigor The wine beginning to rule the body The hand reached for another Eyelids with the weight of stone Unable to see the path The darkness slowly setting in In eyes that struggled to open The conscious mind lost control Darkness everywhere Did midnight look so dark? Body stone dead, with heavy breath Still alive, vegetable like Hmmm, the wine had done it again!

Cupid’s mischief

2000-03-04T20:40:00.000-08:00

Woman! What art thou? A mystery! An enigma! A symbol! You are a mission a man maketh A sense of possession that he loveth The poor man haseth lost The wooing doth failed The other men that thou lureth Have fascinations for another People in circles runneth The love that each one seeketh Fascination still stands above love Cupid the mischief that he playeth The years still passeth Cupid will still do the trick Wonder how many types of arrows he carryeth Some for love! Some for the arranged!

I’m waiting…

2000-03-04T20:30:00.000-08:00

I’m waiting… The train has long departed I’m waiting… The announcement blares through the sound system I’m waiting… Forgotten the purpose of my wait I’m waiting… Was I here to reach her or to receive? I’m waiting… People have come and gone, newer ones are already here I’m waiting… Strange she never came I’m waiting… Well she’s gonna come another hour late I’m waiting… Guess my hunger will have to hold on till then And I’m still waiting…

The beginning of a new end

2000-02-21T14:00:00.000-08:00

It seemed like the world had ended It seemed like a new world had begun Was it joy or was it pain The confusion in the mind compounded Her voice still ringing All the words that she said The smile that caused the flutter Still flashed in my head The heart is still very heavy Can’t come to terms with it It’ll be hard to hide the feelings The next time that we meet Oh lord! Why did it have to end this way? Why does it always do? Do I have to forever live hearing, “There’s a better one for you”

To the promise that was made

2000-02-21T11:00:00.000-08:00

The butt of the cigarette extinguished The body free from the addiction Couldn’t believe it could be done To the promise that was made The intoxication filled within Brings out the courage that’s Dutch What’s the use of all this To the promise that was made The mask pulled right over No sullen look on the face Learnt to hide the feelings To the promise that was made The ex factor attached to the relationship Forever friends shall we be Strange are the ways To the promise that was made The look of her face is ingrained In the mind that can’t forget But needs to move on in life To the promise that was made It’s hard not to think about it It’s hard not to find her there Need to understand her predicament To the promise that was made Another chapter is over But the end is far from near The book of life has to go on To the promise that was made The heart’s been broken twice When will it ever learn to stop! But it’ll need to find a new love To the promise that was made

The Rebirth of a Soul

2000-02-19T14:00:00.000-08:00

My soul's burning with divine pain An entire lifetime has gone About time I made more gain For I need to go back and live The newborn has arrived But lost the memory Of the decadence that thrived In the soul that was guilty Will lead a life of a soul that’s pleasant Coz’ the memory will not inhibit the pain that was aplenty And peace finally comes in the rebirth that’s present But I know the strife between peace and guilt ne'er ends Coz’ I’ll need to come back here, once again

The Darkened Soul

2000-02-11T20:00:00.000-08:00

Poisoned and wounded My soul cried woefully The guilt that surrounded The misdoings of yesterday The beast in me decadent The spiritual being torn Curse on my soul evident Hell’s waiting in anticipation Down the gallows of hell led was I For the sins that temptation wrought This lifetime is to blame For my soul’s at rest but sans peace

My Guitar

2000-02-10T10:00:00.001-08:00

While my guitar gently weeps A feeling of pain within creeps The tune flows imminently in my veins Intimately mixed with the sorrow of pains The angst within reflects Subtly through the musical riffs and clefs My lyrics masked with a joyful face Cheats the world from life’s sorrow case Bye, Bye to my love I say Promising myself I’ll never see her come what may But my guitar still gently weeps From the memory set way down deep Can feel the crack, on my guitar, which once audiences regaled It pains me to see its music curtailed I wish I could give up this form of art Alas! God has been cruel! This is my heart!

A Thought

2000-01-17T10:15:00.000-08:00

Strange as it may be Life has taken a different turn for me I’m no longer human I’m in a different land Everything seems peaceful Everything seems right I wonder if I’m alive Or did they take my life No angel, no gods can I see All that I knew is naïve I happen to know everything My existence is clearer now My death, divine My body limitless Is this what they called heaven? Or will I awake to a new sunshine

Why this way?

1999-10-06T14:30:00.000-07:00

Why I am this way? Why am I not like them? Why do I feel I’m not good? Why do I feel this way? Why don’t I tell her anyway? Why don’t I pour my heart? Why doesn’t she understand me? Why does she behave that way? Why do I do things I later regret? Why do I do them over again? Why do I want to finish myself? Why has it to end this way? Why am I still looking out for her? Why don’t I reconcile and know it’s over? Why does she keep coming back? Why do I want to get away? Why don’t I come face to face? Why do I hide behind mails? Why I am so scared of losing her? Why do I yet act this way? Why am I acting this way? Why do I make pity my game? Why do I write such self-defeating stuff? Why do I behave this way?

Lady of my dreams

1999-10-05T09:18:00.000-07:00

A blue whiff of peace So silent and so calm The sweet smile that lingers To the beholder that sees Almonds for eyes, in thoughtful state Raven hair on dusky shoulders Wonder why she appears pensive Is it me or the world around Is she lonely or self-content? I seek to meet her and not succeed I guess I’m not the one for her But hope doesn’t let go I’ll miss her I know I will I have a while to go before I stop to weep.

The Way

1999-10-04T22:45:00.000-07:00

I was passing one day A lane I used everyday Pondering away the time past A stage in life I had come to last Suddenly, I see the one I love Walking, giggling, down the bough I beckon her and she gives that smile And gets my heart to stop a while She looks for me through those almond eyes I wonder is she had told me a bunch of lies But the smirk can’t leave my face It’s there until I reach my office place

Life

1999-10-04T10:16:00.000-07:00

Life is meaningless, I sometimes think All confusion, all stink Logic, I know it doesn’t follow Destiny I’m afraid, I can’t swallow Is man a programmed being? Or is he there for the gods seeing I’m afraid to think that I’m a useless specimen But I also know when I die; all they’ll say is Amen! People are so superficial and materialistic Materialism stretches across their lives as though some elastic We run to the Supreme Being in times of trouble I wonder whether it’s worth it amidst all the rubble.

Alchemy

1999-10-03T09:15:00.000-07:00

Alchemy, a sign of the times Wizardry for one, magic for the other Burned at the stake, or praised for ever Visionary for some, devils for the other Men are weird, they change with times Kill the first and praise the other.

Fear

1999-09-29T20:14:00.000-07:00

Fear has gotten me I know But I fear to take the fear out of me. I’m so comfortable to live in fear That a fearless me looks abnormal to me I fear death, I fear life, I fear everything alright Yet I fear that should I overcome my fear There’d be nothing else to do How fearful is such a world I say. So I keep going on fearing everything in life Fear is like my breath, or should I say my life I’m running scared that If I have no fear That’ll be the last day of my life, so I fear.

The Game

1999-09-29T20:00:00.000-07:00

Sometimes I feel, It wasn’t enough for me to be just born I seem to be running for so long In search of fame, fortune, companions et al. I wonder whether I need them at all. The World is an Illusion, they said, I refused to believe it coz. I’d so much at stake Then one day it dawned to me I was wrong and had been caught in the Universal Melee. Fight, as much as I may, I couldn’t release The grip of half a century of ideas ingrained in me Running away, sometimes I think is the solution But how could a ‘brave’ man like me concede. So I guess I’ll walk the same over treaded path Till my death whether near or far On my way will I join the raceFor fame, fortune, companions, and game.